Feeling like i jinxed myself when i found out you werent going to be in my life anymore!
Knowing i would probably never see you again! When they told me you might go away i
felt as if a part of me was torn apart! As if you were to leave with the rest of me! I didnt
know how to react how to feel how to control my feelings! I tried to put my head up high
and not think of it! But then i started to remember everything we have been through and
the lat time i was with you! You might think its stupid that i talk about u like this or that i
express my feelings like this but this is real and i dont think no one will ever love you or
be here for you as i did and have! My feelings are true i can never let this love go! I feel
like it would of been easier for me to let u go but now its to late! & i already miss you!
Knowing i might never see you agian makes me cry! Even though we would get in fights
and i would think my life would be easier if we werent in the same place everyday but i
was wrong cause i thought you would always be there! I knew you wouldnt go anywhere
but now its come to the end and your leaving! Im scared you might find someone that will
replace that love you once had for me! I remember we both loved eachother at the same
level our love was speacil it was different it was something that no one could ever have!
Thinking of this makes me so sad knowing i once had you and now who knows!
Everything might sound stupid to you or to anyone but i dont care i always wanted you to
know how i feel but you just make it so complicated for me to express myself to you! I
wish you had some kind of feeling to understand me and the way i feel about you! Maybe
you dont have the right to know because of the way you have treated me less then
anything in this world and if you think im making it more then what it is well really think
about all of the things you have done to me! Te amo te quiero! I regret every bad shit that
ever happend between us i wish i could do everything over again so that we would of still
been together! I know you might not feel the same anymore and it hurts to know but i
wish before you go you will say your last good bye to me! I just want to be with you one
more time! U might think this is stupid but thats all i want from you! I never thought that
once in my life i would actually say good bye to you! Do you still remember that you never
liked when we were about to hang up the phone i would say bye and forget you didnt like
that cause it felt like that was it but now maybe it is!...
*The 13th we would of still been together......<3
~TONTA<33 | 
